He was sweaty and restless and struggling to get back to sleep - I was yet to fall asleep and was beginning to lose patience with him. My eyes were heavy and I desperately needed to get some rest. We had an important weekend ahead – why had he had to get a fever and an upset stomach tonight?
Big emotions were rising to the surface and I was struggling to stay in control. In a moment of sheer desperation, I opened my mouth and began to sing the words of an old hymn.
“All to Jesus I surrender,
All to Him I freely give;
I will ever love and trust Him,
In His presence daily live.
I surrender all,
I surrender all.
All to Thee, my blessed Saviour,
I surrender all.”
Line by line, peace permeated the room and my heart. My son snuggled a little closer and I kept singing; letting go a little more of all I had been holding on to with every refrain.
Uncovered by the relentless demands of a three-year-old, they began to dissipate in the loving presence of my Saviour.
In 1 Thessalonians 3:7, the Amplified describes faith as ‘the leaning of your whole personality on God in complete trust and confidence.’ I have always loved this rendering because it reminds me that God not only wants me to entrust my circumstances to Him but also myself--with all my distinctive traits and responses.
Whether it is the day-to-day demands or the curveballs that life throws us; our deepest disappointments or dearest dreams, Jesus invites us to lean in a little closer and rest the weight of what we carry on the truth of who He is. To ‘in His presence daily live.’
What is God inviting you to surrender and trust Him with?