A few weeks ago I was due to preach at our Church home. My week was a disaster - I pretty much didn't sleep. Now Lucas has never been a great sleeper at the best of times, but that week he really turned it up a notch. Four consecutive nights he woke hourly. I was exhausted. I felt like my brain couldn't string two words together let alone preach an entire message (if I ever managed to write it!).
That Sunday morning, just hours before I was due to preach, I wrote these words in my journal:
Lord, if I am honest I feel totally inadequate for this morning. I am so tired and I feel bad that this message hasn't had the amount of time and thought that I would usually have given it. I am not even sure if it is finished...
Inadequate, not enough - and that's the truth. We all are. We all fall short. We all lack resources. We all get tired. We all need more of something. But God doesn't. He is always enough and in His grace He makes us enough. He equips us for the tasks that are in front of us.
Scripture is full of men and women who faced tasks that they did not have the resources for, but because they trusted and relied on God they were able to do incredible things. They acknowledged their reality, their shortcomings but they didn't make it their focus - instead they kept their eyes firmly fixed on the One who was able to strengthen them; on the One who was able to make a way.
The psalmist wrote:
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Zechariah put it this way when he encouraged Zerubbabel who had returned from exile to rebuild the temple:
"It is not by force nor by strength, but by my Spirit," says the LORD of Heaven's Armies.
And when Paul battled what he called a thorn in his flesh, God said to him:
"My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness." So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.
Glad to boast about my weaknesses - in a world of filtered instagram posts and facebook highlight reels Paul's statement is so counter-cultural. But it is the gospel truth. We are broken but He makes us whole. We are tired but He renews our strength. We don't have enough but He supplies all that we need. We are empty but He fills us with His Holy Spirit.
We are not enough but He is.
I preached that morning. It might not have been my best or my most eloquent but I did it surrendered to Him; I did it reliant on Him. I did it confident that His grace was sufficient. I did it by His Spirit. Because my journal entry did not end with my weakness, it only began there. It finished in gratitude that He would make me able.
We do not need to despise our weakness, we can embrace it knowing that therein lies the perfect opportunity for God to reveal His power both in us and through us. We do not have to shy away from the tasks in front of us because we know that He will equip us with everything that we need to do His will.
He is always enough - and He makes us enough too.
Live today with purpose,
One of my favourite pass-times as a kid was writing. I used to make my own books and write poetry on our old type-writer. Thankfully both my writing and technology have come a long way!
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